Nutty nuts

Oh yeah, that's why I had a feeling of unease. I was about to lose my two largest clients and along with them a large chunk of income and security. I haven't been sleeping thus depressing my immune system and I got sick. Now that I'm sick, It's really hard to motivate myself to train. Fortunately, this is a recovery week. I need to recover physically, mentally, and emotionally. Sleeping through most of the night was a good start. It's interesting, but no matter how sick or tired I am, I'm always up for a run. Yesterday I was supposed to swim 2000m and run for 25 minutes. I can run 25 minutes in my sleep so when I looked at my workout log, I immediately grabbed my shoes and iPod and hit the boardwalk. During the run I felt amazing and ready to take on the world. Swimming on the other hand, I looked at as a chore. I thought of how the water would affect my sinuses and the pool I could swim at during the day is closed. The only pool near me is open from 6-9. I guess I knew it wasn't gonna happen. Anyway, I just want to state for the record that I am facing a rather large challenge in my life. I'd like to start striking back immediately, but that is not the way to beat this. I need to be smart and hard-working and do a lot of legwork to beat this. Most importantly, however, I need to cut the strings that tie me to the pain and shame of past behaviors. I am ashamed of the person I used to be and that can be used to defeat me. What I have going for me, however, is that I am not that person anymore. I am good, honest, intelligent, and trustworthy.